Maybe I should

Update and keep in the loop..

There's A Reason.

There's a reason why I forwarded it. Its got nothing to do with her or anything like that. I dpn't want that. But if I say that you wouldn't believe me. There's a reason were together, well many reasons but right now i don't think you give two shits about it. Honestly right now you are hurt and pissed and I can understand it. And aside that conversation there was no talk for a couple months, aside it was almost a month ago. You can say I was hiding it and what not and I keep certain things. First off I am lazy and such. Second, there is no reason. I should delete it but honestly I haven't. Why not? I don't know. Pretty sure it doesn't matter right now since I am a piece of shit. If you think that has any reason for how I have been lately or something, it has nothing to do with it.

Honestly there is no reason for it. And I'm not going to defend myself there is no reason to. Pretty much you hate me and with that being said, I love you but I'm sure it doesn't matter.

Does this describe you?

So I just had an interesting conversation with me fiance about gaming...Ironic I know. But she brought up a good question. What game do you have 1000 in that you still play for fun. I came up with maybe 3-4 and she brought it on that I complain about the crap of games that I play and such like that. It just brings up the concept of why do I play for GS. Is it all about the games I play or is there an underlying reason I don't have an answer to on why I play like crap. Its brings up the same dilemma in my head from any other console generation. After you beat the game was there really a reason to go back and play it some more? Or were you one of those that once you beat the game there was no real reason to go back to it?

1 Week.

This is going to be a rough week. I can already see how it's going to play out at least. I can do it but for you to say "and then maybe I can talk to you" just hurts. I understand where you are coming from and I'm not going to ask for you to understand. I'm not going to ask for it and I get where you are coming from.

Good News For Me.

Well I have plans in life no matter what happens to me now. Its all mapped out in my head and since nothing goes according to plan I am just going to wait and see how it all shakes out. I think its going to be a good time overall. ^_^

Today Is The Final Day....Before.....

Start of my week of vacation. Should be nice hopefully will be. Who knows all I do know is 4 days of class and I'll be having a couple beers at the least next week. That's one thing I am certain about. Couple deep breaths later and I feel slightly better about this next week coming up. No tards for a week. Should be good. Well on another positive note after this one I have about 4-5 more weeks until I get another weeks worth and then I'll hopefully be doing something for that vacation. Only time will tell though.

Great Week.

For once I had one of the better weeks I can have at least that I remember in recent memory. It was very very enjoyable. I had a lot of fun with some people I would have never dreamed of meeting in a long long time. All I can say to at least one of them is: thanks for the great times and memories. They will not be forgotten. To Marinsie if you're reading this: Happy Birthday. Its the least I can say after everything I have put you through. I have something for you but I am not sure when you'll be getting it or when I'll be seeing you. But to those I met this week thanks for the great times. For the one I really met. Thanks It was a wonderful week for me. And you also...At least from what you told me.